Emotional pain is so real. Sometimes I cant feel anything, Im numb and I have so much to worry about. So many thoughts in my head that the world outside doesnt seem to exist.

I will get into a zombie mode where I just drift through the days getting deeper and deeper into my head and further and further away from life and a normal routine. I will stop sleeping, I will not eat, I become withdrawn from the friends and it all builds up until I need sleeping tablets to sleep.

Men are often encouraged to be strong in a time of crisis. But surely not me.

Crying is way to release tension, frustration or anger. Crying is an acceptable and healthy expression of grief.. at least for me..